Priorities...

As I'm getting older, I'm finding that things which used to hold a lot of my time and attention are becoming much less important.

Case in point: I used to love buying dvd box sets of all my favourite tv shows and watching the episodes for hours on end (all in a row, commercial free!). I used to get super excited when I saw a box set on special in a catalogue and would go out as soon as I could to buy it.

While I do still love burying myself in tv eps from time to time, I've found that the desire to buy and collect box sets is completely gone. 

"When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things." - 1 Corinthians 13:11

I'm not sure that I actively decided to put away this 'childish thing' of mine - it more feels like God just took it away for me.

Perhaps, I think the more my eyes have been opened (to really see other people and their needs, and more of the bigger picture), the less room there is for childish things.

It's certainly not bad to have hobbies, nor does it mean that I'm losing my personality and turning into someone who's not really me. After all, we as a person should not be defined by our habits and hobbies, our likes and dislikes... right?

I also don't at all begrudge God for replacing my enjoyment time with His own choice of activities for me - in fact, I'm finding that there is much greater, truer enjoyment in things that actually matter.

It doesn't really matter if Meredith and McDreamy end up together in Grey's Anatomy. But it does really matter if I'm there and available when someone needs me. Or more tellingly, if I'm not there when someone needs me.

More of You, less of me. There's just not really room for both.

K