By now, a lot of people know me as the 'gifts person'. Gifts was always my love language.
While opening my Christmas presents, I realised things have changed.
Of course, I am so grateful for every present I received, and for every person who thought to give me something. Every item showed how well people know me and what I like. Big thank you!
But opening my presents felt a lot different this year. As lovely as each gift was, no longer are things what I really want (please don't take offence gift-givers!).
Particularly during all the post-Christmas sales, where I would normally be happily and eagerly seeking out the best bargains on clothes, dvds and Christmas decorations for myself,this change came to a head.
I felt almost no desire at all to buy anything.
I still enjoyed the shopping experience, walking around looking at things, helping the Yeap boys choose their clothes, being among the bustling crowds...
I stood in JB Hi-Fi, looking at all the super cheap dvds that I could buy, and once upon a time, would have definitely bought in an instant. But, I felt absolutely no pull to do so. Sure, it'd be nice to have those things, but I found myself not wanting them.
This is quite a turning point for me. I feel like I've always known what was important and what was not, but now I cannot be held back from pursuing the important by a desire for the unimportant, because that desire is just not there any more.
In this season, there are only two things I really want. Want, as in, I can feel my heart burn when I think about them. (Ask me and I'll share.) Everything else doesn't seem to matter much any more. And I praise God for that.
Here's to a new season without the distractions.
K
